Soodaroo in Love
I like it, standing and look to the distance, to the place that life is standing.
New days of university starts and you can find me under some 800-page-books, somewhere in my room, smiling.
With love and tiresome of time, Soodaroo is in your service.
Soodaroo
2004-09-26
5:32 AM
YOU ARE FORBIDDEN
I do not think someone whom live in the free country can understand this sentence which I write up on this page as my title.
I have born in Iran, a country with magical mines in the Asia. I start to see the world in one of the Holy cities in the world, Mashed. I have born while one of the most important wars after the Second World War was still continuous in the west part of my homeland, the war between Iran & Iraq. I conceived time when we were poor after war, I see president Katamiee and Reformers, and I see how they stopped in their path for freedom.
Today I can count till 25 of the November and wait until IAEA decide whether Iran has a way to build the Atomic Bomb or not, and it means we will go to the UN or not, that war start or not and . . . these days for me make no difference, I must go to university, I must see that I have no right to vote freely, that I cannot use the Internet freely.
I do not like politics; I hope I do not write about politics matter soon.
Soodaroo
2004-09-21
22:08 PM
If you are sitting outside of my country, Iran, you are free to on in the Internet and go to whatever place you want. But in Iran, government do not let people to use the Internet freely, lots of time in your using, you can see the page that say:
Dear user, this page is that you are seeking is forbidden.
Today, I same as more than 100 blogger, inside and outside the homeland, change name of my blog to "The Emrooz". It is name of the political web site which forbidden to it is user.
For more information go to the Hoder:
http://hoder.com/weblog/archives/012124.shtml
Or:
http://blogdex.net
Soodaroo
2004-09-20
6:53 AM
Among us you must win, it was the last word, I hang on the phone, and world fell in silence, yard of the university with it usual life, and me alone, it was afternoon, I remember, and we had a show, I never can forgot the day, it was the last, last, last . . .
Among us you must win, I continue in the dark path of my life, you must win; it is only thing I remember from you, and your love for me, your breathe that help me to be alive, and you smile, while you laugh, when you cry, in the time I open my eyes and see you beside myself, and your eyes closed.
I can laugh, I can run with joy in all the street of my city, I come and go, and nothing change, nothing.
You know, I love darkness, and silence, and my room, lonely, lonely, love in loneliness.
"It's funny. Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do. You start missing everybody."
The last lines of "The Catcher in the Rye" by J. D. Salinger
Soodaroo
Thinking of past, after watching Molen Rouge, just want to write, nothing more.
2004-09-17
00:39 AM
9/11
I was sitting in my room and thinking, sad for something I cannot remember, that my father open my room's door: someone attacked World Trend Center in the New York, and I said: what a impotence it has, and shrugged my shoulder up, I was sad as hell, I remember, the world's death could not bring me up. When that night I got out to buy a newspaper, every one in the news stand speaking of that night and news of the New York, someone thinking it was Palestinians, and I mocked them: it has something with the people whom do not believe in WTO, I said, who the hell knows about Al-Gadea in that days, the name repeatedly heard these days, wars, and all the stuff related to the terrorists and war against terrorism.
I came back home and for the first time ever saw the news, airplane drive straight to the tower, and the entire Earth see the hell in the middle of the America.
I am hate murder, I hate war, and I hate people whom kill people in the name of my religion: the holy Islam.
I am tired; I need something for my soul, something that can help me to stand up.
Today, yes today again is the eleventh of the September and I think of world, whom crying for the need of the peace, love and life.
Soodaroo
2004-09-10
22:14 PM
Do you believe in loneliness, it is the name of a song that Marc Anthony sang and I love it as much as Mr. Salinger's works. It was about four months ago when for the first time I herd the voice of this singer: She Mends Me, and I found it very interesting.
Tonight I listen to his songs again, and let my mind freely fly while he singing:
I am half a man, with half a heart
. . .
In the Mashed we are in the middle of the season which is the best time for getting marriage, birth of our Prophet is near and I can listen to vice of weddings car every night.
It is marry time, but I do not know until when we can think of something cute like wedding, you know, I repeatedly had dream of war, thing that is probably will face my country because of lake of Politics power we have in every part of politics life in the Iran.
I am not going to talk about damn politics right now, I just afraid of war.
For the people whom live outside of this country the probable war for Iran is just an article in the Internet or some stuff like that, but for me, if it happens, means destruction of every part of my life.
Put it a side, it is time for marry things: happy wedding and long live for every one who get married in these days.
Soodaroo
2004-09-09
00:34 PM
J. D. Salinger
"The Catcher in the Rhy" is the famous novel written by my favorite writer J. D. Salinger. I found a copy of this book in the third term of studying in the University, but till now I did not read more than half, I am not sure, think it was 'cause mid-term exams or final ones, I do not remember exactly what was the reason, I try to finished it once more but unsuccessful and in this summer I am going to put an end mark on this book. But it is not mean I will not read it more and more.
In fact I read the Persian translation twice and also translation of the short stories by MR. Salinger. I wrote an article for his short story: Uncle Wiggly in Connecticut, for the course Introduction to the Literature I, and other things I do not remember exactly.
By the way, every line of the Salinger novel kills me. Words come and pass in the lines and I became crazy be their powers and all they having. Lots of time I laughed during the first time I read the book, lots of time close it and think deeply, all I can say that it is the most fantastic things I ever read.
Thank you Mr. Salinger, thank you very very much.
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The Rhyme of the Ancient Mariner, the most famous poem by our ancient and lovely Mr. Coleridge, is the poem I print from Worlds Greatest Classic Books tonight and start to discover it. We practice a part of this poem, guess part 2 or 3, in a poetry course a few months ago, and I am dieing to read it thoroughly, I read part one tonight, and think of how beautiful can be a poem is.
This is a usual life of a student of literature: reading and reading and reading.
Soodaroo
2004-09-05
23:04 PM
Problem in Studying
In the first days I start to studying English Language as an my professional, I have a little problem in uttering English words and sentences, after about half an hour speaking English, I found that my face was aching and I guess that I was going to bring up I all have said before. This problem disappears after some weeks of studying and now I can speak for hours without facing to any kind problem, except grammar, I guess. During these days I face to another kind of problems in my path of studying English Language. In the beginning of this summer I want just studying for my MA that is going to be happened in 2 years and that is going to be the hardest exam I ever have, and this mean reading a lot. I do not read as much as I think, just about 1200 page or more, and about two days ago I found myself depressed and lonely, my feelings were fallen to depress mood, by seeing just English letters, and my eyes have several problems too, they became tired too early and tears falling my face while I reading a text and other things.
I know that this is not for ever and in some day or a few weeks I forgot all the things happened in these days for my soul and my eyes, but getting familiar needs time.
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As you see in the right of this web log I have a new part that let you enter your mail and receive all I publish in this blog immediately in your mail box. I recommend you to do that, if you like my blog, enter your mail and be free, because I do not write every days or regularly and you see, I sometimes gone with the wind for a month or more. And in this way I am sure that I did not miss my readers.
Thank you any way
If you want to speak to me you can find me in:
loveinloneliness@yahoo.com
Or see me in your messenger by the same ID: loveinloneliness
Goodbye
Soodaroo
2004-09-04
00:29 AM
Come Back Home
I am listening to voice of Pink Floyd, lovely and beautiful. This is my recent habit to listen and try to understand something from their style in music. Although I do not know anything about music except my two friend whom studying Piano as an pro, I love music with all my senses, it make me calm, let my thought come out clear from my inside and cure my headaches too.
I was not here for days, in fact I was not in the mood of writing something, but you can see that I came back, my description of my web log is changed and now I have Blogrolling and Counter for this blog. And as you see in my Blogrolling I put a link to my Farsi Blog Soodaroo, go there if you can read Persian Language.
I try to come and said my thought, just give me time to recover my routine program.
Thank you any way
Soodaroo
2004-09-02
I think of how beautiful is this song, “Hey You”, by Pink Floyd, isn’t it?
