Soodaroo in Love
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Shadows are following me, I do not know exactly from where, I just felt them about three days ago, I just saw them running toward me, they are still far far away, I am not sure they are human or just some ghost, or something like that – my sins probably – I just feel them near, come near, and nearer.
It was a mood of my life to afraid of darkness, it always fear me death while I am in the darkness, it start around three months ago, when I suddenly saw a tall man, all dark standing behind me and in the exact moment I look back, disappeared – probable Dr. Freud or Carl Yung have something about my feeling in their works – I change my mood and always sit in the light of a lamp, but it was no help.
I always sitting in my room and always something to be afraid of, always some ghost, or something, I think they are all related to my sins. Probably books I read, film I watch, or some other related things help to create these fantasies.
These black ghosts – or human- like – are new, I feel them following me, searching for me – have you ever by any chance saw the first part of the Lord of the Rings? – It is like that dead kings that search for the Ring, I am not sure if I have any ring or something, but they are like that movie.
I am afraid, too afraid,
I do not know what to do
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Soodaroo
2006-02-22
11:41 PM
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Open my eyes you were staring in my face, silence was in the room, all the thing frozen and I just looked deep into your eyes, were all the thing you can imagine was sad.
Open my eyes there were no one left, sitting lonely in my room in the deserted house – others out in a journey – thinking of all the things past, all the things from the beginning, from the first day, probable from the creation, from the first look of Adam to face of Eve. Open my eyes I just saw Eve, I saw Adam, I saw you, naked in my arms, only thing which matters was God, or Love, I could not separate them from each other. I could not, I cannot, I won’t separate them from each other.
Sitting lonely in the room, and just sounds and voices of mad city outside of the walls; Outside someone laughs, someone cry; outside is what people call life. Inside is what they named loneliness. Inside I am alone. Inside everything is dead. Inside just memories, and more mummeries, they are sweat; really sweat, like first kiss of a lovely face, like first time you see Eve in someone, Adam in yourself.
You feel the taste of the apple. You taste lips of a devil. You fall in love, or in hell? Someone call it heaven, idiot they must be. Probably I am the most idiots. Probably I am the most dead, the most sinful boy . . . probably a man in love. Probably this was the same thing you thought, while you touch me, while you taste my lips, while you think this is God, or Love, or Hell?
This is loneliness. This is be dead in the city that thinks in his fancies that he is alive, that he moves toward eternal life, or to the edge of doom, or to nothing? I cannot be sure, I cannot be sure of anything after you stare in my eyes and I cannot find fires in your eyes, I just saw nothing.
Nothing, like a drunk who think every thing is just falling, everything but just a dream.
Every thing but just falling, and that is the rare wonderful true we lost.
Soodaroo
2006-02-16
6:42 PM
Open my eyes there were no one left, sitting lonely in my room in the deserted house – others out in a journey – thinking of all the things past, all the things from the beginning, from the first day, probable from the creation, from the first look of Adam to face of Eve. Open my eyes I just saw Eve, I saw Adam, I saw you, naked in my arms, only thing which matters was God, or Love, I could not separate them from each other. I could not, I cannot, I won’t separate them from each other.
Sitting lonely in the room, and just sounds and voices of mad city outside of the walls; Outside someone laughs, someone cry; outside is what people call life. Inside is what they named loneliness. Inside I am alone. Inside everything is dead. Inside just memories, and more mummeries, they are sweat; really sweat, like first kiss of a lovely face, like first time you see Eve in someone, Adam in yourself.
You feel the taste of the apple. You taste lips of a devil. You fall in love, or in hell? Someone call it heaven, idiot they must be. Probably I am the most idiots. Probably I am the most dead, the most sinful boy . . . probably a man in love. Probably this was the same thing you thought, while you touch me, while you taste my lips, while you think this is God, or Love, or Hell?
This is loneliness. This is be dead in the city that thinks in his fancies that he is alive, that he moves toward eternal life, or to the edge of doom, or to nothing? I cannot be sure, I cannot be sure of anything after you stare in my eyes and I cannot find fires in your eyes, I just saw nothing.
Nothing, like a drunk who think every thing is just falling, everything but just a dream.
Every thing but just falling, and that is the rare wonderful true we lost.
Soodaroo
2006-02-16
6:42 PM
Saturday, February 11, 2006
Saw the caricatures here:
http://www.di2.nu/files/Muhammed_Cartoons_Jyllands_Posten.html
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To: The Secretary General of the United Nations Organization, United Nations Commission on Human Rights, European Union Heads of State, Members of the European Parliament
1- On September 30th, 2005, 12 caricatures of the Prophet Mohammad were published in a Danish newspaper (Jyllands Posten). These caricatures were then republished in other magazines in Germany, Austria and France.
2- However, according to the International Convent on Civil and Political Rights that was ratified by General Assembly resolution 2200A (XXI) of 16 December 1966 and entered into force 23 March 1976, these actions are considered crimes and in violation of international law.
The 2nd paragraph of article No. 20 of this covenant states: "Any advocacy of national, racial or religious hatred that constitutes incitement to discrimination, hostility or violence shall be prohibited by law."
3- Therefore, both as Muslims and 1.5 billion of the 6 billion citizens of the global community, we ask the United Nations Organization and the leaders of the world, in particular the European politicians who supported the Danish newspaper paper and delayed enforcement of international law, including the International Covent on Civil and Political Rights, Declaration of Principles on Tolerance and the Universal Declaration of Human Rights to investigate our complaint and judge those who committed this crime in a proper international legal tribunal.
4- We Muslims do not seek violence. According to our religious beliefs, the humanity of a person remains incomplete unless he is free and we hold the conviction that according to this saying of Imam Ali we are obliged to: Be kind to people! Because if they are not your brothers and sisters in religion, they surely are your brothers and sisters in creation." In a world increasingly moving toward hatred and division, wherein ideas like peace, tolerance and friendship among nations seems quite fragile, it is your duty to keep your sworn commitments that you believe in the shaping of an equal world, free of war and discrimination. We hope you prove to us that you respect us as we respect you as equal, intelligent and civilized humans. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
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Please sign this letter here:
http://www.petitiononline.com/islamic/petition.html
http://www.di2.nu/files/Muhammed_Cartoons_Jyllands_Posten.html
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To: The Secretary General of the United Nations Organization, United Nations Commission on Human Rights, European Union Heads of State, Members of the European Parliament
1- On September 30th, 2005, 12 caricatures of the Prophet Mohammad were published in a Danish newspaper (Jyllands Posten). These caricatures were then republished in other magazines in Germany, Austria and France.
2- However, according to the International Convent on Civil and Political Rights that was ratified by General Assembly resolution 2200A (XXI) of 16 December 1966 and entered into force 23 March 1976, these actions are considered crimes and in violation of international law.
The 2nd paragraph of article No. 20 of this covenant states: "Any advocacy of national, racial or religious hatred that constitutes incitement to discrimination, hostility or violence shall be prohibited by law."
3- Therefore, both as Muslims and 1.5 billion of the 6 billion citizens of the global community, we ask the United Nations Organization and the leaders of the world, in particular the European politicians who supported the Danish newspaper paper and delayed enforcement of international law, including the International Covent on Civil and Political Rights, Declaration of Principles on Tolerance and the Universal Declaration of Human Rights to investigate our complaint and judge those who committed this crime in a proper international legal tribunal.
4- We Muslims do not seek violence. According to our religious beliefs, the humanity of a person remains incomplete unless he is free and we hold the conviction that according to this saying of Imam Ali we are obliged to: Be kind to people! Because if they are not your brothers and sisters in religion, they surely are your brothers and sisters in creation." In a world increasingly moving toward hatred and division, wherein ideas like peace, tolerance and friendship among nations seems quite fragile, it is your duty to keep your sworn commitments that you believe in the shaping of an equal world, free of war and discrimination. We hope you prove to us that you respect us as we respect you as equal, intelligent and civilized humans. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
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Please sign this letter here:
http://www.petitiononline.com/islamic/petition.html
